Sad Scientist

by Gretchen's Wheel

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released March 17, 2017

All tracks written by Lindsay Murray

Tracks 1-3, 5-9 produced by Lindsay Murray
Track 4 produced by Nick Bertling and Lindsay Murray
Track 10 produced by Fernando Perdomo

Better in the Dark
Lindsay Murray: vocals, guitars, theremin
Donny Brown: drums
Andy Reed: bass, mellotron, mix

Left Turn
Lindsay Murray: vocals, rhythm guitars
Fernando Perdomo: lead guitar, bass, drums, percussion, mix

Lindsay Murray: vocals, guitars, organ
Packy Lundholm: drums
Ken Stringfellow: bass, tambourine, mix

Blank Slate
Lindsay Murray: vocals, lead guitar
Nick Bertling: guitars, bass, drums, mix

Save the Day
Lindsay Murray: vocals, guitars, music box
Nick Bertling: drums
Andy Reed: bass, keyboards, mix

The Price
Lindsay Murray: vocals, rhythm guitars
Fernando Perdomo: ebow guitar, bass, drums, percussion, mix

Out of Your Hands
Lindsay Murray: vocals, guitars, mellotron
Fernando Perdomo: bass, spacey guitar, Hammond B3, drums, tambourine, sleigh bells, mix

Lindsay Murray: vocals, guitars, synths
Packy Lundholm: lead guitar solo, drums
Andy Reed: bass, mix

Lindsay Murray: vocals, guitars, mellotron, vibraphone
Paul Melançon: backing vocals
Nick Bertling: bass, drums
Tom Beaujour: mix

Same Song
Lindsay Murray: vocals, acoustic guitar
Fernando Perdomo: electric guitars, bass, mellotron strings and flutes, drums, mix

Recording and mixing locations:
Tom Beaujour at Nuthouse Recording in Hoboken, NJ
Nick Bertling at Superior St. in Chicago, IL
Donny Brown at Hess Street Studios in Lansing, MI
Packy Lundholm at TightEye Studios in Chicago, IL
Paul Melançon in Atlanta, GA
Lindsay Murray at The Unstrung Harp in Westmoreland, TN
Fernando Perdomo at Reseda Ranch Studios in Los Angeles, CA
Andy Reed at Reed Recording Company in Bay City, MI
Ken Stringfellow at Le Son du Blé in Tours/Pasadena

All tracks mastered by Andy Reed

Cover drawing: Hanna-Dora Fazekas (


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Gretchen’s Wheel is the solo project of Nashville-based singer/songwriter/musician Lindsay Murray.

Moth to Lamplight: A Tribute to Nada Surf was released March 22, 2019 on Futureman Records.

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Track Name: Better in the Dark
Better in the Dark

I know the universe is unaffected
by passion burning brighter than the sun
enough to turn your world into ash
while it keeps on turning
no one else feels it burning

why’d you have to go and turn the light on
don’t you know you’re better in the dark
never to reveal all the things you feel
you can’t fail if you refuse to start

I wish all my thoughts remained unspoken
I should try to make myself obscure
I should never open my mouth
it’s time for some closure
this chapter is over
Track Name: Left Turn
Left Turn

traveling at the speed of sound
not once have your feet left the ground
it’s shown you the world but hasn’t taken you far

writing letters you will not send
you know the words and you comprehend
but the right ones don’t come to your mind in time

was your left turn right or are you going in circles
all you see is hindsight, it’s nothing but a reversal
and your knuckles are white ‘cause this is not a rehearsal

you know your nerve never fails to fail
doesn’t take much for the train to derail
and you can’t make yourself believe in destiny

yes, it’s the simple life for you
awake and writing this at 2
as all your energy turns to entropy
Track Name: Surviving

how many days beating your head against the same wall
do you really think you’re ever gonna break through
mining the depths, searching in desolate places
your burden to bear, can’t write a word that’s not true

so what do you get for all your striving
you’re learning you have enough if you’re surviving

blindfolded game, pinning the tail on moving targets
skipping your turn because you’re still burned from the last
you can’t decide on the right time to make an exit
when will you know when your best day is in the past
Track Name: Blank Slate
Blank Slate

I’m not a robot
I am a sad scientist
would it save me from myself
to cease and desist
obsession filling up my days
must have tried a thousand ways

to be a blank slate
do you think it would set me free
because I can’t wait
to find serenity
a blank slate
can you tell me what to be
I’ll eliminate
the greatest part of me

I’m made to feel too much
may be unwell
but take away the highs and lows
then what is left
one too many fatal flaws
list of features to redraw

start from scratch and build the one that you want
an empty page you can write whatever on
Track Name: Save the Day
Save the Day

there were things I thought could be
I found the obstacle was me
good intentions pave the way
words unspoken don’t convey

does everyone feel like there’s something they missed
just a part of what it means to exist
never getting it right
do we ever get it right

love rich and memory poor
I had room for so much more
seems I couldn’t save the day
what’s made for spending can’t be saved

they say it goes faster the longer you live
I already watch my days run through a sieve
Track Name: The Price
The Price

in a constant state of preparation
for the worst case scenario
desperate for distractions
because I know how things could go

it’s a price to pay to care
too much for a heart to bear
it’s an equal part despair
slow down but hurry
because I’m weighed down with worry til you’re there

dependency is very frightening
would I be able to do without
but attachment and devotion
are what living’s all about

intrusive thoughts fill the silence
I’ll dive right in head first
always waiting for the moment
life takes a turn for the cursed
Track Name: Out of Your Hands
Out of Your Hands

there’s never a time when winter isn’t coming
in a world that never won’t turn around
will you ever find the peace for which you’re looking
is it even there to be found

nothing went like you planned
in and out of your hands
make the most of your time while you can

can you discern the places you’re not wanted
can you figure out what went wrong
vision is blurred, fingers tired of crossing
you’d think by now they’d be strong

like you plan
out of your hands
while you can
Track Name: Disintegrate

now that you’re breaking down in pieces like your mind always has
try to numb the pain with the thought of things it’s not as bad as
and when there’s nowhere on earth to escape your fate
there’s nothing left to do but disintegrate

didn’t know how good you had it when you had it
now you’re barely hanging on by a thread
this defeatist attitude is problematic
always bringing on yourself what you dread

though the war is never-ending, you want to lay your armor down
find sweet relief but the enemy keeps hanging around
the drill you know so well, brace yourself for the attack
sleep with one eye open and the wall to your back
Track Name: Wish

some days I’m strong
the future is bright
nothing goes wrong
no demons to fight
some days I’m new
strange and stabilized
dreams I pursue
could be sane and wise

but you can’t rely on memory
I’d rather live it again
maybe then it would be enough
and I’d be satisfied then

some days I’m brave
chances I’ll take
my spirit I’ll save
I’ll bend but not break
some days are golden
the moments sublime
never grow cold
if I can keep it in mind

I wish that I could keep it at bay
the light is fading into dark gray
Track Name: Same Song
Same Song

do you see yourself in every hopeless character
are dreams deferred your stock-in-trade
fantastic illusion to cold confusion
the stuff of which your days are made

we are having the same dream
variations on a theme
we are singing the same song
in a world where we don’t belong

please don’t think you’re insignificant
that no one is listening to you
I’m here to tell you, I am and you matter
to tell the truth I’m weary too

every taste of rejection is sweeter when we share
I hear you in my headphones and it’s easier to bear

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